The price of being labeled as “pukka”

“Pukka” is a word used in Brahma Kumaris to label those who behave in a “firm, permanent or unshakable,” way. Those who are there to stay until death separates them from the religion.

It has been my observation and my own experience that an obsessive mind could transform sheer self-denial into a ticket to what is believed to be “Baba’s lap.”

Here is my own experience. I have written quite a bit about celibacy when I was Avyakt7. I thought I have conquered “sex lust.” I had “tests” of women wanting to be closer to me, and I was “unshakable.” That was a source of pride, of ego. I paid for it. Few know that my last couple of years as a BK, I had developed prostatitis.
Sure, I was celibate and the only way that my “normal” bodily functions of an otherwise healthy young male could have a “release,” was to have a wet dream every 4 to 6 months.
I felt guilty. I felt a failure. I asked for forgiveness. We cannot “conquer” what we reject.

Truly, I was repressing my own sexuality and labeling that as “conqueror of sex lust.”

I would have continued with this repression, but in my path, in my destiny I had the help of my friend, Mathias.
Paradoxically, sexual energy is now a very important part in my path to self-realization.

Why do I share this?
Because some “souls” may feel trapped, fighting their own feelings and living a life of hypocrisy.

The practice of Celibacy is not the same for everyone, as a matter of fact, if sex is rejected, denied and repressed; there will be consequences in the human body.
Observe how many “pukka souls,” have issues with their sexual organs or female breasts. That disease could be a way out of the physical realm.

Nevertheless, I am not saying that this is “wrong or right.” An experience is an experience and one experience of repression will build into an experience of acceptance in the “next life.”

As I mentioned many times already, Brahma Kumaris is a good path as long as we recognize our limits with honesty. That is part of the teaching for everyone is different, “numberwise.” Without that recognition, we will hurt ourselves.
That is not angelic. That is not saintly. That is plain stubbornness.

Avyakt7 New generation for BKs, perceives things differently now. Every experience in Life has a continuation in its opposite. A rejection of the opposite means the buildup of shame, guilt and a sense of failure. In the dualistic world; the opposites are meant to be together and we go from one extreme to the other of a particular experience, just to find our middle ground, our balancing act, our harmonious “middle way.”

The journey is an individual path.

For the common good.

PS: I will continue sharing twice a week. Your questions/comments are welcome.

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