The price of being labeled as “pukka”
“Pukka” is a word used in Brahma Kumaris to label those who behave in a “firm, permanent or unshakable,” way. Those who are there to stay until death separates them from the religion.
It has been my observation and my own experience that an obsessive mind could transform sheer self-denial into a ticket to what is believed to be “Baba’s lap.”
Here is my own experience. I have written quite a bit about celibacy when I was Avyakt7. I thought I have conquered “sex lust.” I had “tests” of women wanting to be closer to me, and I was “unshakable.” That was a source of pride, of ego. I paid for it. Few know that my last couple of years as a BK, I had developed prostatitis.
Sure, I was celibate and the only way that my “normal” bodily functions of an otherwise healthy young male could have a “release,” was to have a wet dream every 4 to 6 months.
I felt guilty. I felt a failure. I asked for forgiveness. We cannot “conquer” what we reject.
Truly, I was repressing my own sexuality and labeling that as “conqueror of sex lust.”
I would have continued with this repression, but in my path, in my destiny I had the help of my friend, Mathias.
Paradoxically, sexual energy is now a very important part in my path to self-realization.
Why do I share this?
Because some “souls” may feel trapped, fighting their own feelings and living a life of hypocrisy.
The practice of Celibacy is not the same for everyone, as a matter of fact, if sex is rejected, denied and repressed; there will be consequences in the human body.
Observe how many “pukka souls,” have issues with their sexual organs or female breasts. That disease could be a way out of the physical realm.
Nevertheless, I am not saying that this is “wrong or right.” An experience is an experience and one experience of repression will build into an experience of acceptance in the “next life.”
As I mentioned many times already, Brahma Kumaris is a good path as long as we recognize our limits with honesty. That is part of the teaching for everyone is different, “numberwise.” Without that recognition, we will hurt ourselves.
That is not angelic. That is not saintly. That is plain stubbornness.
Avyakt7 New generation for BKs, perceives things differently now. Every experience in Life has a continuation in its opposite. A rejection of the opposite means the buildup of shame, guilt and a sense of failure. In the dualistic world; the opposites are meant to be together and we go from one extreme to the other of a particular experience, just to find our middle ground, our balancing act, our harmonious “middle way.”
The journey is an individual path.
For the common good.
PS: I will continue sharing twice a week. Your questions/comments are welcome.
Anil Kumar Reddy Mendu 12:40 PM on December 1, 2016 Permalink |
avyakt7-NG,
Having a wet dream means repressing sex? How to confirm whether I’m repressing sex or not? My feeling is, it is a gradual process and it takes its own time to reach the stage of a true celibate. I saw few BK brothers and sisters, who were confused whether to get marry or not. While on one side there is family/societal pressure to get marry, on the other side there is doubtfulness on own self to be a celibate. Your thoughts?
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ahnanda 6:27 PM on December 1, 2016 Permalink |
Hi Anil,
Wet dreams are usually unconscious events with dreams or without them. Sexual energy needs to move, to transform. If you reject sex, you are repressing it. That rejection manifests in many forms. You need to catch them. You could be ironic while talking about sex, you could feel agitated when someone speaks about it, etc. That is rejection.
You value a lot to be celibate. Why? Please share your beliefs about it.
Sex is not just sex. It depends on who you ARE. There could be beauty in sex as well as ugliness. Likewise, there could be beauty in celibacy as well as ugliness. Celibacy through rejection of sex is not only ugly but detrimental to your health.
Sex through rejection of celibacy is not only ugly but detrimental to your health… 🙂
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Anil Kumar Reddy Mendu 1:41 PM on December 3, 2016 Permalink |
Brother,
My beliefs about celibacy are based on my association with BK system, reading of biographies of few spiritual leaders who experimented with celibacy like Gandhi, and following avyakt7 sharings from 2012. Over a period of time, my beliefs about celibacy and sex have changed considerably from a state of rejection to accepting everything the way it is. The same is the case with vegetarianism. As you mentioned, we have to catch and transform sexual energy in the path of self-realization. The journey is a long one and unique for each of us.
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Gayathri 7:50 PM on December 2, 2016 Permalink |
Yes brother. Many people try to copy actions of our seniors hoping that by doing so they could become like them. So, they go to the extreme, force themselves to DO things in a particular way, not realising the fact that their stage is different from that of a senior and the transformation they want to bring in can not materialise by that method.
Understanding the drama and being honest with one self by accepting the self as it is will make life more entertaining. 🙂
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avyakt7- New Generation 8:11 PM on December 2, 2016 Permalink |
Correct sister. Copying watermark actions of others does not bring internal benefit for what we ARE does not depend on what we DO, but the other way around. We cannot look at others but the self and be honest with it.
Thank you!
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